This blog is simply for me to track my journey from fat to fit. It has been a 52 year journey so far and I am sure it will be a long journey back.
Currently, I am pre-op, on OptiFast, gagging back some of the flavours and remarkably impressed by others. The vegetables are BLAH but for someone who usually loves her veg, this has surprised me. I thought that the veg and water would be the easiest for me, but no... the veg has not.
Why am I having surgery? Well, firstly it's for me. I have had too many years now battling the scales and beating myself up every time I failed another diet. I have convinced myself, repeatedly, that 'this time I will succeed!' only to fail horribly and pile on more weight in despair. I have a family who love me exactly as I am, but I fear that doing nothing will lead to them losing me well before they would like. I owe it to them to find a way back - back to health, back to fitness, back to looking and feeling proud of myself, back to me. Also, I have found out yesterday that I am now type 2 diabetic, and feel terribly ashamed and disappointed in myself that it has come to this. I am determined that this is not my story.
3kgs down and many, many more to go. But it is a start and it is not my finish. I am the master of my fate with weight and I take back control again so that I can achieve my goals. I want to be the person that my people can be most proud of, not just an overweight and unhappy version of that self.
Onwards and upwards!
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